You are not alone.
If there’s one thing all humans have in common, it’s the innate desire to want to fit in, to be accepted, to belong.
It’s a natural crave, yes, but sometimes appeasing that crave doesn’t always come naturally. For whatever reason, maybe you can’t quite find where you fit in. In staying true to who you are, maybe you’ve found that your tastes run different than everyone else’s. And you must be sick of hearing about it:
“Your clothes are different. Your music is weird. There’s something wrong with you. Why don’t you have any friends?”
“All this other shit I’m talking about, they think they know it. I’ve been praying for somebody to save me, no one’s heroic. And my life don’t even matter, I know it, I know it. I know I’m hurting deep down but can’t show it.”
Why you might feel like you don’t belong:
You see everything as it is. There’s no fabrication, no fairytales, no lies. The truth hurts. In today’s society, it’s all about transcending the “American Dream,” from the silver screen into our lives. Maybe you can see beyond that. Maybe you see what really matters. In which case, you probably ask yourself, “What the fuck am I doing here?”
Creativity and imagination are often byproducts here. And there’s always a price for imagination.
“What he has is pure empathy. He can assume your point of view, or mine – and maybe some other points of view that scare him. It’s an uncomfortable gift, Jack. Perception’s a tool that’s pointed on both ends.”
Maybe you just don’t have the energy to connect.
Depersonalization disorder is marked by periods of feeling disconnected or detached from one’s body and thoughts. Depression offers its very own brand of disconnect–one that you can only understand if you’ve felt it. It’ll strike a chord inside that leaves a melancholy tune resonating throughout your bones. And it has to be one of the emptiest feelings in this world.
“Ain’t nobody calling my phone: ‘Where you been? Where you at? What’s on your mind?’ They say every life precious, but nobody cares about mine.”
Hannibal Lecter said, “You are alone because you are unique.”
There’s nothing wrong with that. You’re one of a kind. Embrace that. You should be proud of who you are. There’s no one else out there like you.
Yes, I am saying to take the guidance of a fictionalized cannibalistic serial killer.
“I find periods of darkness can overcome us at anytime. But I’ve also found that I’m able to endure.”
Thanks for reading 🙂
No matter what, always stay true to yourself. Always, always, be who you are.