After my last post, Black Ink and Dark Writing, I began thinking long and hard about a happy post I could write. It wasn’t that I had decided to listen to those little voices–it was just that I knew my life wasn’t strictly confined to the dark topics I wrote about. And you wanna know what came to me?
It wasn’t until I stopped thinking that the revelation whacked me upside the head. I felt pretty stupid because, really, it had been right in front of me the whole time. I was just looking too hard.
So, what was it? What was this ground-breaking revelation that lead me to the keyboard with eager fingers and the long-awaited “happy” post? It was my life. It was my everyday and every breath. DUH! When I stopped and looked around, I realized my life had done a complete 360 in the last month. I realized how I’d reached an entirely different place in such a short amount of time. And it was all at the hands of none other than, ME 🙂
As I’ve mentioned in previous pots, this last winter was murderous–short grey days; long, dark and frigid nights… Allow me to give you a brief recap:
I’m in a line of work that slows down over the winter. I had also somehow gotten stuck paying for two separate places at the same time, so I had a lot of time on my hands and no money. NO money. I couldn’t pay for new car tags and got pulled over 4 times in one month and ended up with 3 separate tickets I couldn’t pay. Bills were spewing from my drawers and I was drowning in isolation and debt. To make it worse, I went through a bad breakup that landed me on sanity’s edge. (Side note: people, if they keep walking out the door then getting mad when you stop chasing them, do yourself a favor and just lock the door).
Anyway, with the arrival of spring, work picked up quick. As my bank account steadily rises, I’m climbing from the depths of my debt, slowly but surely. I’m making new work friends and ending toxic relationships. I’ve recently moved into a nice apartment that’ll let me save more. I’m eating healthier and exercising. On my calendar are plans for hotels, road trips, and flights to Cali to visit the fam. Also, I’ve made a significant change in my life that’ll allow me to further chase my dreams and write more (without being bitched at!). On top of it all, I have a birthday coming up in 8 days! I’ll be 24 and fucking ANCIENT.
The days are getting brighter and longer and the nights are staying warm. You only live once, so enjoy what you can. Who knows? 4 weeks from now, you could be in a completely different place, physically, mentally, financially, romantically… Keep your head up and keep moving.
Life is good.
Thanks for reading, everyone! Hope everyone’s having a great week so far. We’re almost halfway to the weekend 🙂