Blog, Life, Depression

Trying to cure loneliness only makes it worse

It's stuff like this which really makes me wonder if I genuinely may be cursed. If you've been following this blog for a good minute, then you may or may not have a decent understanding of what this blog, MrHushHush, is all about. Truthfully, you probably don't, and that's perfectly fine, because at times, even… Continue reading Trying to cure loneliness only makes it worse

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Blogging, Life

Not Meant to Love

I fucking suck with relationships. Since I moved out at 18, my dream has always been to get to a point where I can comfortably live close to my family--my "home"--again. Almost seven years later, and that dream of mine has finally come true. But now that I'm here, I just want to go somewhere… Continue reading Not Meant to Love

Blogging, poetry

Poem: The Wanderer

The road was cold A frigid night and snow as the boy began a journey all alone The road was cold beneath his bare bleeding toes as he traveled from the East to the far West coast And he called out with his soul He called out 'Hello!' But the only thing to call back… Continue reading Poem: The Wanderer

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I’m Coming Home//Learning to Swim

I've always chosen to be alone. In a previous post I wrote called, “Don’t you get lonely?”, I touched up on why I'm such a private and keeps-to-himself type of guy. When I was 18, my family moved to California due to my dad's work. I chose to stay by myself in a place I hated at… Continue reading I’m Coming Home//Learning to Swim

Blogging, poetry

Trust Issues

My problems with relationships was how this blog came to be. It’s beauty was birth from a moment of pure travesty and despair. A moment when I was at my loneliest and at my lowest. It was a marker in my life I promised to never let myself fall back to. And I've really tried… Continue reading Trust Issues

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“She’s getting too close.”

Those words hold such a familiar sound as they echo through my life. I didn't realize my tongue had become so familiar with such a heartbreaking sentence. But as they yet again fell from my lips like 100 pound weights, I realized I may have a problem. I have a friend. He's been a friend… Continue reading “She’s getting too close.”

Blogging, poetry

Poem: LONER

They showed me a path One which cut through the dense forest like a knife Paved guaranteed to keep me safe I said No thanks. Turned and walked into the trees to pave my own way and in the process began to suffocate Night fell quick and little did I know the sun would never… Continue reading Poem: LONER

Blogging, poetry

Poem: Is Goodbye to Me that Easy

https://youtu.be/8T0Hbkriv-Q They don't notice me I live life so lowkey Alone but not so lonely Still, wont anyone ever come and hold me? Nobody wants to pay attention till I'm sittin wrist slit A victim of something hidden They wont care till I'm dead then the whole town is my best friend talking on what… Continue reading Poem: Is Goodbye to Me that Easy

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Alone and Nothing to Lose

I’m sick of feeling like I’m at the bottom. Y’all are all going to see me. One way or another. Hello? Is anybody out there? Or is everyone just playing the same game of who’s Jordan? This isn’t a pity party, I’m just getting fed up with people seeing me then turning away. I’ve taken… Continue reading Alone and Nothing to Lose