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My Experience with Addiction

Looking back, what I find especially scary is that I was always one of those kids who pledged to never do any drugs. Ever. I wouldn't smoke, and certainly not pop pills. As a kid, I watched it destroy and kill my entire mom's side of the family, and there was no way I was… Continue reading My Experience with Addiction

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Blogging, poetry

Poem: Is Goodbye to Me that Easy

https://youtu.be/8T0Hbkriv-Q They don't notice me I live life so lowkey Alone but not so lonely Still, wont anyone ever come and hold me? Nobody wants to pay attention till I'm sittin wrist slit A victim of something hidden They wont care till I'm dead then the whole town is my best friend talking on what… Continue reading Poem: Is Goodbye to Me that Easy

Blogging, Mental Health

Depression and Addiction

I'm not saying these two (depression and addiction) go together--but there does seem to be a painfully in-your-face relation between the two in my life. So, I've been blogging for over a year now. A year and a half? Over 200 posts, and in each, I've been incredibly open--bringing to light sensitive and personal matters… Continue reading Depression and Addiction

Blogging, poetry

Poem: I now Pronounce you, Husband and Wife

How do you sleep in meadows and pink skies yet live with ghouls and cycled cries How do you stomp red roses and lilies then plant new seeds hoping for twice the beauty You buy a house on top of a mountain then watch the view from behind glass You buy a new phone with… Continue reading Poem: I now Pronounce you, Husband and Wife

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Poem: Please, Stop Loving Me

I don’t deserve your heart so please stop giving it to me Wrapped up so neat with a stunning red bow on top I’m an addict a thief I’m a murderer who watches the world bleed without a wonder I’m a black sheep In a portrait-perfect family I’m the air over a funeral I’m the… Continue reading Poem: Please, Stop Loving Me

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Alone and Nothing to Lose

I’m sick of feeling like I’m at the bottom. Y’all are all going to see me. One way or another. Hello? Is anybody out there? Or is everyone just playing the same game of who’s Jordan? This isn’t a pity party, I’m just getting fed up with people seeing me then turning away. I’ve taken… Continue reading Alone and Nothing to Lose

Blogging, poetry

Poem: When the Storm Knocked

I heard the rumble I heard the grumble and growl descending quick from dissatisfied clouds Like a thousand feet The march of an army rolling over the hills like a warning Then the sky flipped from day to night like God hit the switch and turned out the lights The soft pitter patter upon the… Continue reading Poem: When the Storm Knocked

Blogging, poetry

Poem: Destined to Drown

Floating through this life broken Like a lifeless body drifting through a vast ocean Unable to find a way out a shore, or a lighthouse Beneath the surface in these waters of murk I know are monsters I know they lurk But as I go to scream my lungs are filled and I cannot breathe… Continue reading Poem: Destined to Drown

Blogging, poetry

Poem: Happy Little Pill

Dear oh dear happy little pill You're all I need to make me feel You're all I need to help these wounds heal But what a short-lived fantasy As I'm bleeding still Like a seed I plant you deep inside of me   Take my world of black and white Let buckets of blue and… Continue reading Poem: Happy Little Pill

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Birds seen flying around

"Birds seen flying around. You never see them too long on the ground; you wanna be one of them. You might hear the birds singing flying around. You never see them too long on the ground; you wanna be one of them." Sometimes I look around and think about how much I don't want to… Continue reading Birds seen flying around